WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE..HELP PLEASE ANYONE?

i am a 20 year old mother of a 5 month old..my babies father is not living ..i ended up dating this guy whom is my boyfriend now.we moved in together in a 4 roommate apartment.not a dorm but an apartment. its student apartments. me and him agreed that we wouldn't stay together because this is not what we expect for be in especially with my 5 month old so i moved to my home city with my cousin.i really didn't want to come here but my sister and mother insist that i stay but nether one of them stay in this city.they all think im moving back just to be close to my boyfriend..in which is true but to be honest there is nothing here no job opportunity no great school or nothing and im tired of sitting on my butt.ive tried applying for everywhere.and im also tired of staying with everybody i want my own.i feel like the city where my boyfriend stays has better opportunities but my family wants me to stay here and i dont want to disappoint them but im not feelings this..but then if i move there and it dont work as planned then idk where i would stay if i come back.i dont know what to do..i was staying with my babies father before he passed away and i was working and stuff but once i got pregnant i couldn't work anymore at that time and then he passed and i wasn't able to afford the bills..i dropped out of school in the 12th grade because my father was really abusive and they put me in foster care and m father would literally come to my schools and threaten me so i dropped out and emancipated my self and they let me stay with my babies father..i really need advice and and opinion because i have to do better for my son and i don't know the move to make right now